Can God make Me New?

"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9, World English Bible).

I honestly searched for anything which strains my relationship with God. Even with God’s help, I found no unconfessed sins in my life. I do have the habitual sin of gluttony for which I confess often. God always tells me in my spirit to just keep trying, He gives me creative ideas of how to do better, and I do better. I know God forgives me, so maybe the problem for me is the second part of I John 1:9. Maybe I don’t truly believe that God can cleanse me from all unrighteousness. I know that God is great, but my orneriness is great too! I have failed many times. 

But I don’t have to be sinning to feel bad. Sometimes the bad feelings come from disappointment in and disrespect for myself which make it difficult to feel happy. My self-esteem is elated when I know that I’m obeying God because I respect myself. And I have done right before, but never alone; anything good I have ever done was in God’s strength when I submitted to Him. In order to secure a more hopeful future, I have to trust in God’s power more. The more submitted I am to God, the better He can help me.

Prayer: "Dear God, please help me to search out the tiniest separations from Your Spirit. Please help me to believe that Your goodness and mercy can help me to overcome all my defects. Please cleanse my mind so that our relationship can be strong and remain strong."